Sweet Jesus...

Jesus, is the sweetest person I know.

On Saturday morning I had a Single Life Small group meeting and it was a meeting where I shared my relational journey which is an extremely vulnerable part of my story.  It was hard, but also easy and I really feel closer to my group.  It is such a wonderful, fun-loving, and beautiful group of people and I left feeling very loved and heard and seen.

As I was walking out to my car, I saw some roses and I went over to smell them.  In my head I thought, "I wish I got flowers.  There really is no one to send me flowers.  Even this rose. It would be so lovely to have this rose." But this rose was also OBVIOUSLY part of someone's garden, and I would NOT pick a rose or any flower from someone's garden.  As I leaned over to smell the rose, I touched the head of the rose ever so gently and rose broke off into my hand.

The craziest part was WHERE the rose broke off.  Not at the head where I LIGHTLY touched it, but way down the stem so that it was a long stemmed rose!!!!  I felt like God was giving me this rose!  And so I took it!!!

I brought it home and I put it in a vase and I smelled it.  It was one of the most fragrant roses I have EVER smelled in my entire life!!!  The very next day it was BIGGER and it had been in full bloom the day before so this was SURPRISING and DELIGHTFUL.

Everyone who has smelled the rose has said that it is the most fragrant, sweet smelling rose they have ever smelled.

I believe it was anointed from heaven just for me.  Everytime I have been in the same room with it, I have been overcome with giddy, lovestruck joy.

Jesus is so sweet.

Day 1

Day 2

Provision Comes as the result of BIG VISION!!!

On Wednesday evening, I received an e-mail from the financial office of the ministry school I attend stating that I still owed a payment from October 8th.  This has been very difficult for me because although I have found small amounts of income through cleaning houses, driving people to the airports in surrounding cities, and offering my photography skills at half price, I still have not been able to find other employment to fill in the gaps.  My training is smack dab in the middle of every single day so it can be very difficult to find a job for the hours I do have available.

Wednesday afternoon however, I had a job interview that seems very promising.  Although it does not pay a lot, I would receive an iPhone and could cancel my current phone plan, which would save me a lot each month. I would only be working two days a week but it would be helpful. I think the interview went well, so we shall see!

So back to Wednesday night.  The e-mail stated I would need to address this issue by the end of the week or I would be locked out of school this coming Monday. Additionally, we have our final payment of $1100 due in two weeks as well. So as you can imagine, I started to worry.  I have already sent out support letters, so it seemed like I had asked enough people for money.  The only other option in my mind was to make money, but it was becoming hard to do that.... So I was in a quandary.  I had all of these bills breathing down my neck...  I knew God had sent me out here.  I knew he had called me to go to this school and be part of these ministries, so it didn't make sense to me that he would just abandon me out here with no provision.  And that's when God's truth began flooding over me through people in my revival group, people here at Destiny House, people at church, and through GOD HIMSELF. 

Tonight at church we talked about not letting negative worry in our thoughts but instead "worrying" about amazing things like... "What would happen if God provided MORE than enough for me? What would I do? I'm worried I'm going to have so much money, I'm going to have to start giving it away!" One thing that stood out to me was this thought that when we hear a negative curse, it's easy for us to imagine that negative thing, but when someone blesses us, it's sometimes hard for us to let our imagination run wild with the possibilities of that blessings. But WHY?!? Let's imagine and declare these impossible blessings over our life!

We had a time where we just asked God to take us into the throne room and speak to us about whatever issue had been hard to overcome lately.  I saw myself entering the throne room and God was smiling.  He was almost giddy with excitement, joy, and mischief!  He started throwing golden coins at me!  Abundance!  Over and over.  I started stuffing them into my pockets until my pockets were bulging.  "No, Melissa."  He said with a smile, "I've got someone to carry that for you."  I turned around and there were angels holding huge bags bulging with gold coins.

Then God showed me another picture of me as a little girl.  He took me to an ice cream shoppe and I was sitting up on one of those swivel chairs and he sat next to me and looked over at me with a grin and said, "What do you want?"  I ordered a big Sundae and he said, "I want to treat you.  I want to give you abundantly MORE than you could ask or ever imagine!"

I know God values my ambition and my heart to earn my own way.  But I also know he values teaching me how to receive from him as well.  He has more for all of us, you know.  Much MUCH more than we realize. 

So fast forward to this evening.  I check my e-mail...I'm in tears of joy as I write this! I received an anonymous donation of $500 that paid for my October 8th payment that I missed for school! Praise the Lord and THANK YOU whoever you are.  Even better than that was the fact that it ended up being that my October 8th payment was actually $320, so the remaining $180 went directly into the last payment I owe for school!!!!  Hallelujah!!!!


Wow.  Thank you EVERY single one of you who have donated to me, provided odd jobs, bought paintings and prints, photo sessions, booked my taxi service, etc. I can hardly wait for the time to come where I can bless you in return. I declare that you will receive back DOUBLE what you have given. MAKE THAT TEN TIMES!!!!! Wow. I am overwhelmed in the best possible way.